Bread and Water

Ok.. so finn has prepared a couple of blogs one that I asked for and one that I did not but I like them both and again I have decided to post them here instead of having him comment. I don’t really like the way the comment section is displayed here. I like for people to be able to see immediately what others have said. While we are on that subject, I’d like to clarify that anyone at all is welcome to comment on what they see or read while enjoying this blog.

I write this because it gives Me pleasure and also because it helps me work out things in My mind and bring them to the forefront for introspection. finn likes it because it gives him a window into My mind without actually ASKING Me which he feels is a much safer vanpoint that engaging in a subject that might very well turn against him.

So, I will let finn tell you the story of our latest “finn project” but look for a few comments from Me at the end…

MISSED GOAL
by finn[Ky]

Perched up here on the tall chair this boy doesn’t like it. Mistress wanted this boy to write what it felt like to be punished like a little boy. This boy used a taller chair to sit facing the corner just because he felt it more appropriate than sitting in his comfortable executive chair.

Mistress was not necessarily in favor of a boy losing the weight the doctor has ordered. She thinks this one will look too skinny by the time he goes back to see his doctor in October but She yielded to the desires of the medical doctor. That makes this assignment a little harder than most.

Mistress Kytherea had this boy set up a goal weight chart with a new weight every two weeks and finn was to achieve the targeted weight by October. A boy developed the goals on his own with no input from his Owner. So in a sense they were sort of like a contract. These were goals finn said he would make! It would be different if my Mistress had set them. Then a boy would have an excuse for missing one…. Well not really. It would still come down to the same thing… disappointing my Mistress.

A boy sits here staring at the screen, the corner of the room silently wrapping around the laptop. Looking for the words that would make up a good reason to miss this target. This target, the most important, being the first one. Right out of the gate a boy is behind.

Speaking of behind, not to be left out Mistress has commanded this boy to give himself 30 to each cheek. A boy guesses that is for the three pounds he missed by times 10! But finn has learned not to question the methodology or the math as to why She comes up with the numbers She does because it can quickly grow to 3 pounds times 100!

I feel bad for disappointing my Mistress but finn has felt worse. a boy thinks it is because finn doesn’t get the impression that this is all that important to my Owner. A boy knows it should be and probably is because it involves his health, but he just doesn’t feel it perhaps he will when he reaches for the wooden paddle.

THE END

Well, as I said earlier, I have a few comments to make about finn’s blog above. I thought it might be fun to talk about that regression of being punished as an adult. That feeling I have often talked about of the war that goes on in the head when a command conflicts with accepted reality. The order to “go to the corner” or to “come get over My knee” causes the “will I or won’t I” syndrome. As a Dominant, watching the conflict flicker through the mind of the submissive, it is reminiscent of a deer caught in headlights. As we know, since everyone doesn’t subscribe to the desire to be a part of our lifestyle, I often wonder what spurs us on to seek out these feelings and even further, to actively play them out. I cant tell you what pleasure it gave Me to see finn hunched over and sitting in the corner and isn't it interesting that I enjoyed the pictures when he was clothed as opposed to the ones where he is naked. Naked is more severe but the clothed ones are more real. The moment the picture popped on to My screen my eyes lit up and a smile curved onto My face. I had achieved exactly what I set out to do. To Me, it’s not a humilitation thing, although I feel it probably is to finn. For Me, it’s a visible proof of the power I have with My property and yes… some of it is just the mean and evil side of Me manifesting. I am in touch with that mean streak and it has a protected place in My heart.

As for not having My heart in the task, I would say finn is probably right about that but what he ISN’T right about is the fact that I might give him any slack over it. It’s true that I don’t think he needs to lose any weight and I don’t want My property to be skinny and since I have always been on the heavy side, I certainly don’t want him skinnier than ME. I am also not a medical doctor so I warily give over to the Doctor’s professional opinion. My property should stay in good working order. So, it would be a silly mistake to think that I would not pursue the command for both the reason that the Doctor said it needed to be done and secondly and MORE importantly.. because “I” said it needed to be done.