LOOKATHATASS

OH yea... I forgot to say.... Thanks finn for the picture of the girl with the naked corset threaded through pins attached to her skin.. she looks hot but I would be squeamish to touch her.

This picture is an adequate representation of what I'd like to do with a girl. Makes My fingers itch.

Oh yea.. and I wanna kiss her too... that's My New years resolution. In 2008 I'm going to end My inexperience of never having kissed a girl. Maybe more.... he he

K

: the state of being weary and restless through lack of interest

That's the definition of "boredom" and you will see later why it's in the subject line of this post.

I think that finn's post below is one of the more interesting I have seen and not just from him but from any submissive that rides the roller coaster of being someone's property. I am often proud when reading his entries and some of them show his warm sense of humor which is one of the main reasons I let him stay around while he lurked and listened for the year it took for him to earn My Steel (collar).

finn is/was a service slut. I always knew that he preferred touching Me either physically or mentally by service from the very beginning. This post has little humor in it as I think he writes to understand his rather odd actions and choices. Odd to Me and to him as well. I was not surprised he went to see a Pro. We had discussed it before and he knows that I would not disapprove. When it comes to My property under the power of another Dominant that I can not actually spend time around and get to know, I feel more comfortable if he's with a pro. At least I know the odds are a little better that she can actually come across with what she promises and sometimes there are actually references that can be checked. Any lifestyle Mistress he wanted to see that lived close to him, I would have to meet her, talk to her and maybe even watch her in action. This is hard to do since most Mistresses looking for a boy don't want one who would need to ask permission from another Mistress first.

I knew from the very beginning that there were some area's that he might be hungry for that I would probably never be able to fulfill to any great level. It was a concern of mine from the beginning with finn. I'm not good with humiliation although I'm getting better at it; I don't do a lot of CBT even though I do play with it a little and I don't let My boys fuck Me.

I liked finn for the things that other more tiresome boys didn't have. Some of them were brats and I do like that to a point but when they would get on My nerves, finn was a breath of fresh air which is indicated on how many other boys he has outlived in My service. he didn't whine about just serving My person and I didn't feel pressured to "perform" for him. There was a comfort level there that made him easy to be with. I tease him a lot and say he's "high Maintenance" and in ways he is because he gets antsy if even a few days go by without talking to Me. Never say never is a pretty good way to look at some things since as I have grown as a Mistress, I have acquired tastes for some things I never thought I would.

Unfortunately, for him or any other slave that might enjoy medical play, this will never be one of those things. I detest and recoil with pasty colored skin and a damp cold sweat from just the sight of those "packs" full of various medical torture items. My sadist side pours out the window, gone completely from My head as I push it out of the way so I can get out FIRST.

As for sexual play, it's sort of a give or take and depends on who I'm playing with how I use it. I have a very active sex life with My husband and since Charles and I made a deal early on that I would not have sexual intercourse with My boys, I don't play with finn or any other boys sexually. Some. to whom D/s is an early foreplay would exclaim in dismay but I found that I really don't need it to enjoy the control I love with Dominantion and there are boys and girls that not only don't need it, they don't WANT it. Boys or girls that have spent quality time with Me will know that I'm a very sexual person, but only a few of them have been lovers and all of those before Charles returned from Brazil. A deal is a deal and there are not many women who's husband trusts them to the point that they can go off for a weekend of leather with another man in the same hotel and be fine with it. I have honor and even though there may be some instances where I am tempted to give in to that pleasure, it is usually fleeting and My character is more important.

I have been speaking lately to a girl I once owned and trained. I'm proud to say she's an excellent slave today and has been in service to and pleased many a Mistress. I know that dara (this was My name for her and she knows who she is) loves sex. She is playful and sexy and horny and can be an excellent slut. I did not use her sexually when she belonged to Me and she just told Me that she was just in service to a Mistress who also did not use her sexually. I know she finds it... lol... because I know dara. she's no doormat and any Mistress that decided to take her on better be a BAD Ass if needed. but there is nothing like her when she is commanded to serve and just like finn, I'm proud as punch to know that when other people say, "look at that girl" or "look at how well he's trained", that I had a hand in that.

I AM a bit of a Sadist and I certainly am a spoiled Diva but I'm also a caring loving person and I'm fiercely protective of what is Mine sometimes even of submissives that have been abused or even worse, abandoned. I don't think any of the things I've mentioned above led finn to a Pro Domme and I think he probably hit it closest when he said he was feeling jealous of the other slaves I speak to both here in New York and online. from sheer sticktoitiveness, he inhabits a place of importance in My chain and he does know that none of the rest can challenge him where service to his Mistress is concerned but his "boredom" concerns Me.

I have been concerned lately that I wasn't feeling "kinky" enough. What IS kinky enough? I just read a post from
[info]boymeat
about sex blogs and how his isn't one and he was good with that. So, this is My statement that I dont feel the need to be "kinky" all the time and even more so, I don't have to play on the edge to be a good Mistress. I am the Mistress I am and I'll enjoy the parts of it that I like. I will always have a chain of slaves. finn always nudges Me to go to kink events and I guess I'm glad of that because I always have fun when I go, but I'm juggling two lives here. I like to do things with Charles on the weekends so I usually go play when either he wants to go play with his friends in Astoria or when he's on call and busy anyway. I like the balance, but I've been concerned about whether it's enough for finn.

I guess there are probably some people out there that are thinking, "well, if Her boy is headed off to a Pro then She's not doing Her job." Maybe they are right, I don't think they are and I know finn knows what I have to say to them, "I don't care bout that." BUT, if My boy's not getting what he wants, we need to work on that. Six years is a long time to be together. Maybe he needs that newness of learning what a new Dominant wants from a slave. We will cross that bridge together if a Mistress living close enough to him to visit emerges. I may have to agree to ease up on the circle of control she has with him. In the end I may have to relinquish him to Her. In the meantime, he protects his steel with a deal he struck in the beginning. I was shocked to the core that he asked to play with needles. This from a boy that used to cry if I reached for a paddle.

It wasn't a need for pain... it was a cry for attention and I'm not sure it was just for MY attention. just like My friend jason said in his comment to finn's post, if finn's reasoning really was pain that didn't leave marks, finn knows that I can find those and they don't have to be medical either. I doubt anyone near him would think to check under his fingernails . Regardless, it bothers me that he was bored and willing to go to such lengths to relieve that. he did tell me that his favorite part of the "session" was when she let him worship her legs which if a further indication of his love for personal service. On the other side of that coin, he does like to be able to say he's "experienced" things so now he can add needles and sounds to that collection. he's two up on Me and the tally is likely to stay that way.

Stretchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

This is a post from finn... I hope you enjoy it.. I did...



The other day i went to see a Professional Dominatrix for treatment or as they like to refer to it as a session. This was a stretch for me. i have seen many ProDommes over several years. What made it unique was that it was the first time visiting a pro since being in Mistress Kytherea’s Steel (roughly six years depending on who is counting). i did not go with the purpose of seeking a new Owner, or getting a spanking that Mistress Kytherea would be more than happy to give.

Why i sought out a Pro is definitely harder to answer than why i chose to try the things i did. Why did i do it? i think it was that i was bored. There wasn’t a lot of action in the chat rooms to feed my hunger. My Owner was away visiting with relatives so i resorted to my “roots.” to fill my need. i have gone to pros since high school and been lucky in the way i was treated by professionals, so i wasn’t really concerned with any of the bad things that could happen. Another possible reason i have considered is that i have become jealous of the attention new boys have been able to garner from my Mistress. Perhaps this was a way for me to get some attention for me. i had been missing Her daily calls and contact and might have just felt alone. i don’t really think this is the reason because i think i have bought in to the uniqueness of each boy She decides to talk to. Each makes Her happy in some way and when She is happy that makes the world turn much smoother for everyone.

i treat the unrestricted nature of my collar as a special privilege and honestly i don’t request to see another very often. It’s rare that my Owner has not permitted me to see another Mistress. So when i do see another, i feel it is only fair to my Owner that i gain an experience that She couldn’t or wouldn’t provide me. In this instance i requested from the Pro to experience some medical play, specifically needles and sounds.

Thinking about it now a week later it seems kind of silly that i would trust a total stranger to stick needles in me rather than my Owner, the One who is more responsible for my personal growth than anyone. During the interview beforehand i told Ms Simone that i had nothing but GOOD EXPERIENCES and that i trusted Her to keep that record intact. While in the back of my mind i was thinking about my Owner playing with me and needles or sounds and all of the sudden saying OOPPPS! Meanwhile, i fall limp, held upright by two pieces of chain attached to wrists cuffs one on each hand as i writhe like a fish just pulled out of water trying to pull my thighs together cringing and cussing while hearing my Mistress’s laugh ringing in my ear. i was brought back to attention with the Pro saying “I don’t do ooppss.” i must have been thinking out loud but this had a calming effect and put me at ease compared to the words i would get from my Mistress “I DON”T CARE ABOUT THAT.”

i wonder what had brought me to this point? How did i get from hating pain to requesting One to push needles into my skin? i will say it in front of God and everyone “ i am a baby!” “i HATE pain.” Witnessing the spanking that michael had gotten for biting my Mistress’ thumb i thought i would avoid that kind of punishment forever. he is a bit dramatic, but i have never before or since witnessed an ass beating like he got. And he begged for it. Anyway, when i lost my temper at Spanksgiving i wasn’t thinking of the consequences. Suffice it to say that Mistress Kytherea corrected my bad behavior.

Fast forward about two weeks and my Owner and i were talking about my punishment spanking at Spanksgiving and Mistress Kytherea told me that She gave me one that was just as bad as the one She had given michael. She also said that was about as severe as She could go and not leave marks. The other day when i was discussing the needles with Ms Simone, i told Her that i would like to try needles but i couldn’t have any marks. She told me they could be done without leaving marks and so… it was game on.

i was nervous as all chit knowing that if ANYTHING went wrong i would have hell to pay from my Owner. Ms Simone was experienced enough to sense my apprehension and was in my ear calming me and coordinating my breathing with the insertion of the needles.

So right now i am feeling a bit cocky. i survived needles but i am realistic enough to know that She started out slow placing them on probably my least sensitive parts. i know She asked me if She should leave the “nether” parts alone this time and i adamantly agreed.

i wonder what is the deal? Am i willing to suddenly display some sort of bravado toward a tolerance of pain knowing that I will be saved from “going too far” by my inability to have any marks. i don’t feel that i am seeking out pain for the “love” of it. i have no desire to have needles stuck in my nether parts.

Or is it the same basic finn[Ky] with nothing changed a boy that yearns to please Dommes and specifically his Owner. Am i willing to tolerate more pain because it pleases Her? Was i relying on my basic instincts and just plain pleasing a Domme without regard to professional, lifestyle, or Owner? is the answer that basic? What if my ability to lightly play with needles tickles My Owner’s interest to a point She would discover a new arena to play in. OOOOOOOOH that’s a stretch!

The girl is for You Mistress.



Be well,
finn[Ky]