Lions and Tigers and HOODS?

I was talking to finn the other day and brought up the idea of using a hood next time we play. I got interested in that when a boy here in NYC that I want to spend some time training balked at going to the dungeon. I felt a good andswer to that would be to use a hood. he seemed happy about that as well.

I think exploring the area of sensory deprivation is one I look forward to. I agree with finn's words which I will post below in that I like to see his facial expressions as well. he probably doesnt realize that he rarely shows facial expressions anyway. I don't know if that is in an effort not to spur Me on or if it's just his habit but either way, it makes it easier for Me to use the hood because I'm not losing that much of My own pleasure anyway and it gives Me a chance to experiment a little. So, here are finn's comments.....

HOOD or No Hood....

by finn[Ky]

This morning my Mistress phoned me and told me while She was posting blogs She realized that She doesn’t have any pictures of us in a scene. Mistress Kytherea has had me strung up twice in public but the public is not exactly what I would call “camera friendly.”

This boy cannot just blame the mere public for this. You see, boy is shy and not particularly interested in having his picture taken. You probably already know my Mistress doesn’t give a fuck about that as evidenced by the various compromising pictures She has me take for Her.

But this morning She told me She was going to change that the next time we meet. She told this boy that we were going to purchase a hood for this one. She asked how finn felt about that? Before a boy even thought he said “whatever You want Mistress.”

She told me She was becoming curious about the sensory deprivation aspect of play plus it will allow Her to photograph me during a scene. She has a plan to accomplish this, but it may be awhile before it comes to fruition. There no date set for the next meeting.

After She hung up the phone finn started to think more in depth about what She had said. This was unusual because usually it takes a couple of weeks to think about events that have happened, things Mistress has said to a boy or lessons She has taught a boy. Mistress Kytherea knows a boy goes through these times we refer to as “processing.”

Sealed inside of a leather hood presented me with no great concern initially. A boy had no specific desire to experiment and learn about it. It shouldn’t be painful and other than some mild discomfort from the heat inside the helmet thus it seemed as no big deal.

Mistress Kytherea’s words “I am curious about sensory deprivation.” kept ringing in my ears. Then it seemed finn could think of nothing other than the senses that would be deprived hearing and sight. This boy can only imagine that his hearing would become muffled, as his ears would become trapped, pressed between the inside of the hood and his head. This boy wouldn’t like that. he enjoys hearing his Mistress during our play. She seems to know exactly what to say to this boy to keep his mind focused and a boy in his place.

Sight has become increasingly important to this boy. Most of the time my Mistress is behind finn so he cannot see which implement She will use next, but sometimes a boy does get a glimpse. This helps a boy brace for what’s next. Although a boy can do nothing about which toy She chooses, where it will be delivered or with how much force because he is usually securely fastened it helps to have some warning.

Not only is my sight important but the sight of my Mistress is as well. Mistress Kytherea would be the first to tell that She prides Herself on observation and reading people. Well if my Mistress cannot see the grimace on a boys face he may have to resort to contortions that look like they have been a part of mid evil tribal dances. She is probably smiling at the thought of this, but a boy is not.

This boy does trust Her judgment to the fullest as we travel down the road of exploration together. It pleases me that She has selected this one to explore with, as he kneels waiting patiently for Her beck and call in darkness or in light.

Bread and Water

Ok.. so finn has prepared a couple of blogs one that I asked for and one that I did not but I like them both and again I have decided to post them here instead of having him comment. I don’t really like the way the comment section is displayed here. I like for people to be able to see immediately what others have said. While we are on that subject, I’d like to clarify that anyone at all is welcome to comment on what they see or read while enjoying this blog.

I write this because it gives Me pleasure and also because it helps me work out things in My mind and bring them to the forefront for introspection. finn likes it because it gives him a window into My mind without actually ASKING Me which he feels is a much safer vanpoint that engaging in a subject that might very well turn against him.

So, I will let finn tell you the story of our latest “finn project” but look for a few comments from Me at the end…

MISSED GOAL
by finn[Ky]

Perched up here on the tall chair this boy doesn’t like it. Mistress wanted this boy to write what it felt like to be punished like a little boy. This boy used a taller chair to sit facing the corner just because he felt it more appropriate than sitting in his comfortable executive chair.

Mistress was not necessarily in favor of a boy losing the weight the doctor has ordered. She thinks this one will look too skinny by the time he goes back to see his doctor in October but She yielded to the desires of the medical doctor. That makes this assignment a little harder than most.

Mistress Kytherea had this boy set up a goal weight chart with a new weight every two weeks and finn was to achieve the targeted weight by October. A boy developed the goals on his own with no input from his Owner. So in a sense they were sort of like a contract. These were goals finn said he would make! It would be different if my Mistress had set them. Then a boy would have an excuse for missing one…. Well not really. It would still come down to the same thing… disappointing my Mistress.

A boy sits here staring at the screen, the corner of the room silently wrapping around the laptop. Looking for the words that would make up a good reason to miss this target. This target, the most important, being the first one. Right out of the gate a boy is behind.

Speaking of behind, not to be left out Mistress has commanded this boy to give himself 30 to each cheek. A boy guesses that is for the three pounds he missed by times 10! But finn has learned not to question the methodology or the math as to why She comes up with the numbers She does because it can quickly grow to 3 pounds times 100!

I feel bad for disappointing my Mistress but finn has felt worse. a boy thinks it is because finn doesn’t get the impression that this is all that important to my Owner. A boy knows it should be and probably is because it involves his health, but he just doesn’t feel it perhaps he will when he reaches for the wooden paddle.

THE END

Well, as I said earlier, I have a few comments to make about finn’s blog above. I thought it might be fun to talk about that regression of being punished as an adult. That feeling I have often talked about of the war that goes on in the head when a command conflicts with accepted reality. The order to “go to the corner” or to “come get over My knee” causes the “will I or won’t I” syndrome. As a Dominant, watching the conflict flicker through the mind of the submissive, it is reminiscent of a deer caught in headlights. As we know, since everyone doesn’t subscribe to the desire to be a part of our lifestyle, I often wonder what spurs us on to seek out these feelings and even further, to actively play them out. I cant tell you what pleasure it gave Me to see finn hunched over and sitting in the corner and isn't it interesting that I enjoyed the pictures when he was clothed as opposed to the ones where he is naked. Naked is more severe but the clothed ones are more real. The moment the picture popped on to My screen my eyes lit up and a smile curved onto My face. I had achieved exactly what I set out to do. To Me, it’s not a humilitation thing, although I feel it probably is to finn. For Me, it’s a visible proof of the power I have with My property and yes… some of it is just the mean and evil side of Me manifesting. I am in touch with that mean streak and it has a protected place in My heart.

As for not having My heart in the task, I would say finn is probably right about that but what he ISN’T right about is the fact that I might give him any slack over it. It’s true that I don’t think he needs to lose any weight and I don’t want My property to be skinny and since I have always been on the heavy side, I certainly don’t want him skinnier than ME. I am also not a medical doctor so I warily give over to the Doctor’s professional opinion. My property should stay in good working order. So, it would be a silly mistake to think that I would not pursue the command for both the reason that the Doctor said it needed to be done and secondly and MORE importantly.. because “I” said it needed to be done.