I know it's been a long time since I wrote but well... no excuses. Lot's of stuff going on with Me and My slaves as well so I took a bit of a hiatus.
It's a new year and I think it's going to bring new things for Me. There are times that I am uninspired to be kinky. I enjoy nesting and doing vanilla stuff too. I made a promise to Myself after My divorce that anything I pursued for My own enjoyment would be just that, for ME and governed only by Me. I have the same rule with my journal. I don't HAVE to write in it if I don't want to and I don't.
I think I'm ready to hit the runway again though and dig out the paddle as well as My "wink and a smile". I'm going to start that re-entry by replacing andrew, who as some of you know, went MIA last year or longer, I forget. I miss him more than I thought I would and I find Myself noticing things around My home that he was responsible for like the curtains in My bedroom and the decor in My bathroom. Charles misses his socks and underwear being matched and organized as well.
Of course that means the painstaking job of finding a new slave which is SUCH a drag. There is that time experiencing the learning curve which is good and bad. I could make My other slave finn do it but he lives too far and would whine about it since he could care less if I have another slave anyway. So, I will have to do it by Myself and since I know exactly what I want, I know it's going to be hard.
My Dirty Dozen Must Haves.
Let's see if I can even get close to what I want or expect:
1. Cuteness - No matter who it is, they must have a cute meter. This will be important and might save their lives when I'm pissed off, since I'm a sucker for a cute miserable slut. Notice I don't say beautiful, handsome, hot because it's about the charisma... it's ALL about the charisma and the click.
2. Gender - I haven't decided so this is open and maybe even open to add a boy and a girl to My chain. A boy is stronger and can carry and lug more than most girls. Hush, Hush... I know, some girls can run circles around some boys but I do like my slaves to work and I like to WATCH them work so their ability to lift and carry is important. Truly though, I'm open.
3. Submissive - OK. this gets dicey. My slave MUST be submissive but not a doormat. I say that now but when I give an order, in the end, I don't want to get that "this is just a game and since I really don't want to do that, I'm not going to" look. This is NOT a game. No one is rolling dice here to get the next move. It's human interaction at it's height. Real people, real hearts are in play and at risk. I don't live up to My submissive, they have to be here for Me.
4. Bi-sexual - My slave has to be open to playing in either court. I'm not really bi-sexual but I am definitely bi-curious. Because I'm married to a Dominant Male, and have friends in both courts, I want this to be a possibility and not a shut door.
5. Availability - I am reasonable about life and work. But 90% of the time, a slave of mine should be able to work out being with Me if that is what I want. On the other side of that coin, he should be able to amuse him/herself if I don't want to see them. I have a demanding husband that needs attention too although since I can be intense when left unfettered, he will be happy that I have someone to keep Me occupied some of the time. Sometimes I think he misses andrew more than I do for that very reason.
6. Ambitious and intelligent - My slave must have goals. I demand the best of My slaves and that means they must always be working on their personal and professional goals. I will be a part of the decisions they make and My goal is always for them to be the best they can be. I take a lot of pride in their accomplishments. My finn is a great source of pride in what he's achieved since we met. Part of that is a college degree and I beam with pride when I see that certificate. andrew too had a long road to success and growth and I was a very big part of that.
7. Public play - Most of us are in the closet to some degree, some more than others. I love to play in public and be a part of the kink community. Example, I think I reached a pinnacle of pleasure one night at TesFest sitting out on the back patio with friends with finn in a chair across the table from Me and andrew on his knees beside Me shirtless and adoring. Having both My slaves with Me was payback for all the hours of planning scenarios, scenes or having tired arms from throwing a giant flogger all night. So, the deal is, if playing in public gives you goosebumps because you are shy, we can work with that. If a slave is too worried they will be seen or "found out", then that slave would be better off with a Mistress that likes to play only in Her living room. Just a note, I DO like to play in My living room too.. lol
8. Vanilla time - I'm not always on. I like to have vanilla discussions and chat about nothing some of the time. My slave has to like that too because I don't perform for them. We have to really like each other. Once, at a meeting at RSVP in Baton Rouge their fearless leader said, when you are here, only have kinky conversation, that is what people are here for. That's just bullshit. I want regular relationships with My kinky friends but the kinky isn't separate, it's PART of who I am.
9. Sex - Ok, here's an important point. I do not allow My slave to have intercourse with Me. This is a deal-breaker and part of My agreement with My husband. I can fuck THEM and I do enjoy that with male or female slaves. I like to play with them anally so if you hate anal or not willing to explore it at all, I wouldn't be the right Mistress. I like sexual play, but it never ends with a penis in My pussy. Well not THEIR's anyway... lol. This is probably the only area that is different for a girl in my service. Sex rules are different for her.. lol. A warning, I am much more into the power dynamic with my slaves than I am with sexual play. If this lifestyle is all about sex to a slave, again I'm NOT the Mistress for them. I am way more likely to get off on a tea party with Mistress friends, serviced by pretty trained slaves.
10. Sadism - I like to cause pain but My real love is control and the mind fuck. For me. it's not about how shocking I can make a scene or how sadistic I can be. I like a little blood here and there and I guess one could call Me an edge player but it's because I like to play with fire and not because of skin laid open with a whip or a needle. (I'm medically phobic so you won't find Me in the medical dungeon) I'm not adverse to allowing My slave to play with other dominants to deliver what I'm not interested in doing but I don't want to have to worry about a disappointed slave because I'm not sadistic enough for them.
11. Travel - I like to go to fetish events in other places. A slave of mine will have to be able to fly. White knuckles is ok since I won't care about that, might even enjoy their fear but they have to be ABLE to get on a plane. They also have to be financially solvent enough to pay their way. I'm not a big planner but the events are, so it's rarely a surprise that can't be saved up for. I might even enjoy that saving plan as a "scenario" for us.
12. Adored - I must be adored! This doesn't need explanation... lol
