It's not always easy to be Dominant, especially when it's something that you don't DO.. it is just who you are. To lead or teach or correct comes naturally but for Me there is a nurturing to it as well. I know it sounds strange, because I do enjoy watching a squirming slave whether they are just all bound up and nervous about it or they are on the other end of STING and moving around understandably. To wonder how these two seemingly opposite actions,nurturing and giving pain, can be such worthy bedfellows is good fodder for thought.
I spend time caring about what is Mine and thinking about what their next experience should be. I know that I can be pampered also by this property of Mine but I'd say that I'm on the receiving end MUCH less than the slave in that category. The massage, the pedicure the serve is all well and good but the majority of the time, it's the slave that is the center of attention.
I suppose the online part of My experience is where finn or other slaves get the most attention because I can be with them more there. I ask for some patience here from those of you that don't interact online or that only know Me from the dark dungeons of NYC he he.. while I talk about the online experience a little and vent.…
I enjoy coming online, it relaxes Me and although it is a driving force for Me, it's nice that people generally like when I come to visit. finn and I have recently ventured into new areas of the online lifestyle and I must admit, have been really interesting.. good in some ways, strange in others. A most important point that I guess people don't know is that I have My own home that I run as I please. It is on IRC on the bondage server and has been there for close to 8 years now.
Being online, no matter how hard you try to avoid it, is always accompanied by some amount of human dramatics. It's strange how people jump to conclusions without really doing their homework. Recently, I've been taking a few hits over some changes that were implemented in this new venue. For whatever reason, mostly because I come across as a Dominant that likes to be in control (shocker.. they are absolutely right) a few people just assumed that I had just stepped in and for no reason at all, changed the rules in this place to suit Myself. Nothing could be further from the truth and alot could have been avoided had they just asked before making assumptions. Actually, I was told which things were desired and I organized them and helped write them into a slave information room so they were easy to read and agreed to help make sure they were followed.
People really can be cruel and meanspirited. For Me, it's even worse when it comes from the mouth of a slave, compounded further by the fact that this one cannot decide WHAT they are, always bouncing from Capital letters to little letters and changing collars like yesterdays underwear. It's really difficult to retain that rule of Mine to be tolerant, even of people just playing at a role. Respect really isn't in this one's vocabulary and I certainly can't say much for the Owner since the same rationale seems to be in effect there as well. Very little class from either party. So,to each their own but not when it gets in My face.
I know that a few of the slaves that are at home in this place wanted to experience more control and a little protocol. I think the owner has done a wonderful job of making a home that is fun and that she has every right to want to build this feeling of control around herself. I see slaves crave that very thing every day. It's her home, why shouldn't she have that and what does she owe these people that criticize her for it. They are just beginning to realize that it wasn't Me but her that wanted to move forward with her experiences in this lifestyle.
The bottom line is that people yelling the loudest actually do very little to help her. They just come around and demand that their way of doing things be number 1. she wanted these changes, she wanted to feel the ropes of control in her home and she asked Me to step up and take control so that she could. I agreed but at some cost to Myself. I don't disagree with her, I know what she is wanting. All this bitching over a few small rules. To ask permission for entry and exit, to address the dominants with respect and for t-girls to identify to people they want to play with that might not know of their trangendered. The whining from these few seems more than a bit riciculous to Me.
There seems to be this fear that the home would be headed for Gorean lands but this would never happen. It's a Femme Domme palace. Gor is a Man's world. Gor shaped what I find alluring in BDSM. But I also have a tolerance for all lifestyles which in not acceptable in Gor. The few simple rules that have been instituted in this palace is so very very far from being Gor. What IS in place is simple protocol that I see in practice every time I go out to events in the city. You can always tell the real players because they have NO problem responding within protocols and they are Owned by people that understand it and enjoy watching Their property operate as they were trained to do. It truly is something to be proud of. I am proud of finn and how he conducts himself both online and when he is at My feet in real time. Of course that could be because he's rubbing them and it feels good.. lol.. just kidding boy.. you bring Pride to My eyes when I watch you.
I feel somewhat protective of slaves that are seeking more structure or control and have found they were hungry for it. I don't think mean spirited people should be allowed to lessen that experience for this one or the others that come visit and have fun there with little need to cause drama and find that a simple polite, can I come in? just really ISNT that big of a deal.
