lil tink didn't like changes too much... well Mainly changes that included Wendy giving her competition for Peter Pan's attention.... anyway... neither do I but sometimes it's time to grow... this is one of those times.
so I wanted to let you know that there are going to be some changes coming with the website. I've decided to do a little restructuring and will be offering some products for sale.
I have been formulating an idea for a radio show/podcast idea for quite some time now and I think I have it organized in My mind enough to acually kick it off now. I will also be producing some of My stories in installments and podcast form. I'm trying to figure out how to put on on here this week so stay tuned and watch for it. I have an idea for a couple of fun little items to go along with The Fungeon theme and think the best part of it is that you could have them with you but the vanilla world wouldnt really know what it is.
I think it's really important not to resist change and it's something that I really work ok with Myself, being a creature of habit. I have to press Myself sometimes to change from the status quo (if you could ever consider ANY mindset of Mine status quo). I learn and grow always, so it's important that I let that out in creative ways.
I think an excellent example of that is the Gorean world and how that relates to Me. I noticed when I was reading My website that so much of it is ruled by Gorean and online activities. There was once a time, when that was all I had. Gor played such a big part in giving Me the confidence to strike out and do what I wanted to do that to leave it out would be senseless. I have been desireous of Our lifestyle since ever I could remember but I didn't discover that I could really experience it, or that there were others out there until I was in My 30's. After I went through a divorce and set about digging Myself out from under all the crap, I found the online world of spanking, Domination and submission at a place called TSP run by a little nazi named Sean. Sean is still around and still being the asshole he is but what I did get out of it was an open door to experience who I really was and a step out that door to really being happy.
After I played around online with the really lighthearted side of brats and Doms, I discovered there was a more structured world with stricter protocols called Gor. I loved it from the moment I entered it and to this day I use most of the protocols and serves to train My slaves.
I have to say that at this time, I had already taken the step of moving My interests from the online arena to experiencing things in a real life sense. I think everyone should take the chance and jump out there. It takes balls but it pays off. Those people that were My friends at the time (many of them still are very good friends of Mine) formed together to string safe calls and construct safety nets so that we could meet people online in a certain modicum of safety. Where I lived in the South, there were no orgs that I could get to on a regular basis, so I traveled to meet people that I knew from our online family. I have to say that I never had a bad experience and it was a Dom friend of Mine that took Me to My first Dungeon in Dallas, Texas at the Sanctuary. If any of you have ever been to it, I'm sure you know that it's just an awesome place.
You have to go to the meeting first or you can't go to the Dungeon. It was the rule of the Black Rose Society in Dallas which I think is a very good rule. I enjoyed meeting everyone at the meeting and was already having a HIGH time before We ever walked into the dungeon. By the time We got there, people had already
spread out in the large well furnished former warehouse and whips and paddles were cracking. I just threw open the doors and walked in with eyes wide in awe and delight. My brain went into overload. Where should I look? Which scene was I most interested in? I had never watched OTHER people play up to this time. I never realized how wonderful it was to watch others and learn and enjoy their power exchange. But something more important happened. It was really the beginning of when I actually became a Dominant and knew that I wasn't destined to be a submissive ever again other than a playful or educational moment from time to time.
There was a flutter of attention at the door. People were whispering and boys were moving forward for a better vantage point. I thought it was probably a celebrity or something. Then I saw Her. A Mistress had come in with Her two slaves on a leash. Her control over the people around Her, even some other Dominants was immediate and I was intriqued. She was tall and blonde and not overly beautiful but that wasn't important because that wasn't what was most special about Her. It was Charisma. I have that too and it was like two strands of power curled towards each other and intertwined. She looked up at Me and as soon as she saw Me started to move forward. One of her boys beat Her to Me asking My name and I must admit, I was a little intimidated. If you know Me, that says alot about this Powerful Woman. She looked at Me, totally ignoring Her pet that was simpering around Me and said in a haughty voice, never taking Her eyes off Me, "What have We here, a baby Domme?"
Well, I wasn't so sure I liked that at all but I was so curious about Her that I decided not to take offense. I told Her that I had just begun the Dominant side of Me and if that made Me a baby to Her fine, but that I didn't particularly like that terminology. She laughed at that and offered Me Her pets ass to fuck or beat, whichever I wanted and I took her up on it. She was a Pro Dom and she made a few attempts to lure Me to Dallas to work for Her which I declined. I was on a new road and I wanted it to be MY road. But to this day, I can remember the butterflies in My tummy when I saw Her. It wasn't fear, it was excitement and I have continued to learn and strech who I am and to take with Me on that journey those that choose to align themselves with Me. Someday, maybe already, who knows, I will be that Mistress to another younger Mistress. I believe it's our responsibility to Mentor and I will live up to that bargain and give back what I received.
This is all to say that I'm going to do one of those "stretching" things now and reach out a little to share what I know and also to maybe expand the boundaries of the kinky world a little into the vanilla. I don't know if the podcasts will work or if I can find people to help Me enough with the technical side of it to get it going in the way that I really want to but what the fuck, how can it hurt to try?
So, if you see changes in the next few weeks, hang in there and be one of the people that comes along for the ride. If you have things you want Me to address
or people you would like to hear more about, let Me know. Most of all... remember... the rule at the Fungeon is.. HAVE FUN!
