finn and I speak on my commute into the city on the LIRR most every morning. I've gained a few train buddies so if I get deluged by them, I sometimes have to hang up but having those daily conversations with him often times will "settle" Me for the hectic day ahead. I look at it a lot like a mode of service that he can provide from a distance. It's that distance and finn's slow down on travel and our ability to be together that began the search for someone nearby his home that I felt could use My property and keep it intact.
I think that the phone time might have taken us into a quasi-vanilla state and I feel the reason for this is twofold. The fact that it is daily, might be amiss of excitement which would be there if we didn't speak everyday and two, at that time, I'm often prevented from certain conversations that I want to have that involve pain or play in order not to have My fellow train budding looking up from their books wide eyed.
When getting on the train, I will look for places next to people wearing headphones because I know that I can talk about whatever I want. But many a time, I have watched their faces as it dawns on them what I'm talking about. I admit that the Mistress in Me loves that look and I will often meet it with that dead stare topped off with a bit of arrogance to further get off on it. On the other hand, I want to be respectful of their limits and what their poor little vanilla minds can handle without going into overload.... lol so all that being said. I gave finn an assignment to tell Me how he feels about maybe finding someone to use him when I cannot. I'm posting it below and I'm not going to comment right now because I'm pondering My feelings about it.
...by finn[Ky]
Some of the readers here may be aware of Mistress Kytherea’s support in finn[Ky]’s search for a local Mistress who would be willing to use this boy in exchange for some real life training. “Our” search has been a long process. Part of the problem is a boy’s current condition as he commented to Mistress Kytherea that he had “baggage” and after being warned that this boy had better not be referring to Her as "baggage", he clarified that not only did he already have a Mistress but was married as well, so those conditions are considered baggage.
After posing the question to Her if the situation was reversed and a boy was coming to Her under those conditions would She take him? She admitted that She would not, and so a boy had made his point. It’s not that this boy has any desire to change either condition and that alone is probably the rock of his relationship with Mistress Kytherea but it is reality and a fact that should be acknowledged.
This year at Beat Me in St. Louis, Mistress Kytherea identified a prospective Mistress. She liked the way this Mistress carried Herself and the way She controlled Her slave and made it Her mission to meet and talk to Her and assess Her willingness to use this boy. It has taken a boy nearly a month to coordinate schedules and to convince the new Mistress of his sincerity so with that initial meeting approaching Mistress Kytherea thought it would be a good exercise for a boy to put into words what exactly it was that he hoped for. This is that assignment.
Yesterday during our daily phone conversation my Mistress asked what it was that this boy hoped to gain from seeing a different Mistress. What did he want? Egotistically, this boy quickly answered with flogging, rope bondage, maybe some whipping. Weekly sessions would be preferred and if She wanted time to just hang out, that would be in addition to the weekly sessions.
Mistress Kytherea asked; What about “H”? That is MTA code for humiliation. The train is always crowded when we talk, so if She will be compromised we often play a version of “fill in the blanks.” finn[Ky] knew his Mistress would be keenly interested in his response, since She has always thought She wasn’t good at this type of play and didn’t fill the needs of this boy. The truth is She is far better at it than She gives Herself credit. ( yes, it’s hard to believe but true.)
This boy answered Mistress Kytherea, that he was still interested in humiliation but that it was not an absolute necessity. A boy wants a Mistress to basically be flexible enough to drop what She is doing or change Her plans to accommodate when a boy can get away during the week or on a weekend seminar. This one does not understand why this process should take so long. This boy sees it as a simple request so let’s cut to the chase. he’s a submissive, without a lot of mental baggage, who respects Mistresses and would treat them well in a safe environment. She was informed of his marital status back in May, and if it wasn’t something that She was comfortable with… just say so and a boy would politely move on.
Fast forward to this morning and this boy was speaking to his Mistress when he told Her that he had been thinking about his assignment. Almost instinctively, Mistress Kytherea asked; “What about?” This boy reminded Her how he had answered Her question the day before and that he wanted this and wanted that. She acknowledged that She remembered. A boy continued that he had failed to mention anything about serving the Mistress and what he could do for Her and that everything he had said was for “his” benefit. finn[Ky] could hear his Mistress smile through the phone as She said “REALLY?”
Fortunately, a boy’s mind had worked it’s way to remembering his training before it was too late, for undoubtedly this was an exercise to prepare him for his initial meeting with the new Mistress, who would surely ask some of the same questions and if a boy cannot convey the benefits to Her, why in the world would She want to spend Her time on him?
It is really a tight rope that a boy inches along and there is that theory that says we have been successful doing things like we have for many years and not to rock the boat and maintain the status quo. But there is also a theory that says nothing ventured, nothing gained. Mistress Kytherea knows this boy well enough to know that he wants to be the “best” slave and that if this boy is able to learn anything from another Mistress that will benefit his Owner in any way he is willing to do that.
Don’t let me mislead you into thinking that this boy is some sort of hero that is willing to dive under the bus if for no other reason than his Owner’s entertainment. That is not true. finn[Ky]’s training has it’s limits! It has been suggested that this boy is greedy and that he is not satisfied with his Owner. Perhaps this one is greedy, but a boy would rather think of it as looking for something that he has lost. Serving twice a year is not enough to keep a boy sharp and interested. So a boy would like to think of “Another” Mistress as an extension of Mistress Kytherea’s arm and a way this boy can feel the presence of his Owner on a more frequent basis.
my Mistress has mentioned about Her not feeling kinky enough to keep this boy satisfied.. She used to trap me into a corner with my own words (an easy task at first that grew more difficult) but those days have long passed. Perhaps it is just real life that has taken over. This boy is restless as he approaches a time of uncertainty, both financially and personally, but a boy doesn’t want to just sit by and let life drive me .. finn[Ky] wants to drive it.
So during his initial interview when another Mistress asks finn[Ky] what it is he seeks from Her or what is his desire he can quickly answer that it is his desire to serve Her and bring Her the pleasure She deserves and seize the opportunity to regain those submissive feelings that have been carried off by real life.
finn[Ky]
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