"DON'T BE AFRAID" is what my Mistress told me this morning during our daily phone conversation. She was refering to my suggestion that perhaps it might be better if this boy created this post in a word document first, so She could edit it for posting here. Admittedly, a boy had been putting off writing a response. She scoffed at my reluctance to admit that this one might write something that She would not like which would unleash drama. Drama is something a boy tries to avoid whereas his Owner thrives on it, especially if it is "others" drama and not Hers.So when She commanded me to write this post today in response to Her last post indirectly a boy could see Her face with a smile along with the expression of "Make My Day."
Let this boy start by saying that anytime Mistress Kytherea and a boy get together it is an exciting time no matter if it is Beat Me in St. Louis, Spanksgiving or any one of the occasions this boy has been able to travel to in New York. Generally the day of Her arrival is spent executing chores that represent the fruition of hours thought leading up to the culmination of seeing Her after a long absence.
This preparation was not quite like the rest. This boy had been busy writing final papers for college, worrying about business that had experienced a slow down, and trying to sort through a possible career change. Additionally. this was one of our busiest weeks of the year and this boy was having a bit of guilt for not being there to support his employees however, finn[Ky] wasn't going to let that get in the way of being with his Mistress this weekend.
This boy was thankful that Mistress Kytherea had insisted that we go to Ragazzi's for supper on Friday night. That had not been a good experience last Fall. The food was great but this boy didn't leave us enough time to get back to the hotel and had to take the food "to go." This year however, things worked out well and it was like we were going back there to "pick up the pieces" or sort of "starting over."
This boy had suggested to his Mistress that Friday nights might be better than Saturdays for a time to play since it would allow more time for the marks to disappear. So this boy was excited when Mistress told him to carry the toy bag downstairs with us. finn[KY] had totally forgotten about the comments on earlier blogs about the ability to inflict pain without leaving marks. a boy was soon to be reminded after he was told to strip and get in "display." For those that are not familiar with that position; feet are spread a little wider than shoulder width apart, fingers are interlocked with one another and held together behind one's head, eyes are looking forward.
"fuckkkkk that hurts!" instinctively shot out of finn[KY]'s mouth as his Owner attached a clothes pin to the tip of his nipple. this boy immediately took a step backwards, and drew his elbows inward in an effort to relieve some of the pain, which drew words "you better not step away from Me!" a boy straightened up the best he could as Mistress Kytherea attached the matching clothes pin to his other nipple.
this boy looked down to Her face as if to ask "what the fuck???" She was smiling , which further filled a boy with rage. he hadn't seen it coming and he thought to himself we hadn't been playing long enough for me to have pissed Her off that bad to do something like that. She offered some advice like "I am running this show." This boy remembers thinking to himself; "You couldn't just tell me that?"
this boy was done for the night ... shot. a boy remembers thinking to myself that this was the end. this boy was done with it. a boy can't tell you what happened next because he doesn't remember. finn[KY] just hunkered down and took whatever else his Owner decided to give.
Some may call it sulking, others pouting, but neither of those accurately descibe this boy's feelings. he was trying to figure it out the "why?" and it ate at finn[KY]. a boy really doesn't even remember what happened and how it got to that point even later that night, this boy no longer saw brushing Her hair as a reward and a privilege. his mind was elsewhere he was just trying to get through. Mistress Kytherea fell asleep and it was lights out.
The next day the room had a coffee maker but a boy showered and walked down the street to get Mistress Kytherea some coffee. finn[KY] was not sure if the coffee awoke Her or the noise but She arose rather early and asked if a boy still wanted to show his house. this boy did want his Mistress to see his house, but some of the excitement had been tempered by the events of the night before.
a boy knew in his heart he was going to have to bring up the events of the night before with his Mistress. Suddenly he was questioning his submission and the purpose and his mind was traveling in circles with no answers. Although he didn't have any answer he was smart enough not to bring it up on the way TO the house. Two reasons for this. The first; a boy was kinda waiting to see if his Mistress brought it up on Her own. The second was a boy didn't want to dampen the experience of his house.
After the tour of the house on our way BACK a boy asked his Mistress if She would help this one try and answer some questions about the night before. She anxiously agreed and a boy proceeded. finn[KY] told his Mistress he was trying to figure out what brought on his feelings of thinking he had been "sucker punched" the night before. He had clothes pins on his nipples before but didn't understand why these were so much more painful. was it because he didn't see them coming? Finally the hardest part. Admitting that a boy had lost his trust in his Owner.
She calmly listened to my questions and concerns and then answered them. Mistress Kytherea explained that there is a period of preparation that the submissive must go through to get ready for a scene and that with my time constraints that this boy probably had not been as focused as in the past. She also reiterated that She was running this show and that this boy NEEDED that. This wasn't a boy's work environment, or his home life where a boy is controlling things. AND that if this boy wanted that to change he could keep seeing Pro's. Mistress Kytherea said She had noticed lately that a boy had been trying to control the scene and that She had to show this boy who was in control.
a boy had to agree with the statement about "preparation" beforehand. a boy had been preoccupied in the days leading up to his Owner's visit. Her statement about this boy trying to control the last couple of scenes caused a boy to think back to our last scene which was in New York at Paddles. Mistress Kytherea and this boy had attended a TES workshop earlier in the week on alternative materials used in bondage ie. saran wrap, vet wrap so naturally a boy thought that was on the top of Her list try so when he had extra time during the week he purchased the needed supplies for his Owner's toy bag. a boy was controlling the scene wrapped in saran wrap and blindfolded? Then in Her last post the real reason... a boy had gone to see a Pro without Her express permission.
Moving on... Saturday night after my first DM role a boy was uncomfortable. DMing just rubs against my submissive nature a position of authority.Afterwards a boy and Mistress Kytherea were able to meet a Mistress that we had not seen before. Mistress Kytherea said She had noticed Her the night before but as this boy said he was in his own world. She looked totally HOT and was beating the shit out of Her submissive. Yes you could say this boy was scared.
After our shift as DM's Mistress and this boy played. Like it has been said before no pain ...no gain. a boy was a little uneasy at first as his nipples were damn sore. It would be three days later before they returned to normal. A boy left the clothes pins in his toy bag on purpose trying to do what he could to spare his nipples additional attack. After telling a boy earlier how silly it was not to use a safe word, Mistress Kytherea had a boy in display facing Her and She started flogging Her property lightly across the chest. It wasn't unbearable but it was then, that moment, this boy felt that he was totally Her property. With just a little added flick of Her wrist Mistress Kytherea could have reduced me to a squealing heap of flesh. One time a boy thought She had gotten close to inflicting pain and this boy made eye contact with his Owner and knew by Her look back to this boy that She was perfectly in control.
That feeling would not have been possible without the events of the previous day because this boy is stubborn. Had this boy's nipples not been "prepared" the night before a boy would not have been able to feel Her power. Later that evening this boy thanked his Owner. She said "What for?" and this boy answered "for sparing my nipples." She just smiled.
This boy thinks She knew that he had a lot more to be thankful for than his nipples, but She knew it would be better for a boy to figure it out for himself. This boy thinks about those events nearly everyday and he does have a lot to be thankful for.
Thank You Mistress Kytherea!
submissively Yours,
finn[KY]
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